alright, shall blog before i continue on my project again.
HAHA! :D
yea, its ranting again.
this would be last LAST time! CONFIRM!
today's training supposedly was to row.
but because of some annoying sports festival,
end up, we have to run 2 rounds around bedok reservoir!
its like 10KM?!
timing was to complete it within 75mins.
for the whole 2rounds, i was in total misery.
i swear it was terrible and miserable! I SWEAR!
chest was super tight, i was dam breathless. DAM!
i have to breathe in so hard, so that i could expand my lungs!

i was wondering whether im in a running club,

or dragonboat.
worst still, i was running slower than a person who is walking.
yes, she WALK, and i RUN. but im slower.
D-E-M-O-R-A-L-I-S-I-N-G! arrgh.
i tried so hard to overtake, but i just cant keep up.
and one funny thing happen,
like when i was looking down while running uphill,
then at one point of time, i realise i was actually running on the spot.
i thought i was moving up the hill, but im not.
HAHAHHA! hilarious! :D
i laughed to myself man!
ntl, throughout the whole run,
its as though only my body is running.
my mind and soul just left me to run like mad.
was coughing till im totally drained out.
not a single drop of energy was within me.
many times when i looked up and back,
not a single soul was around me.
i prayed so hard that i wont faint and left to rot.
morale was almost gone.
i felt so useless at that point of time. USELESS!
its like, for every few metres i run,
i have to stop, cough, puke and breathe before continuing!
imagine how many hell times i stopped!
its HELL! fuck.
and theres nothing in the stomach for me to puke,
but stomach acid!

i dont know if im crying or its my pespiration.

i just felt my eyes teary.
then finally i saw SAVINA!
like finally theres hope.

she ran with me, encouraging me.
then saw XIAOPEI!

she did the same too!
and saw the rest of my teammates.
i felt the team. thanks guys!

thanks for the encouragement and care!

i took 85mins to run finish. 85MINS okay!

XP asked me for my comments for today's training.

total speechless.

im sorry i dint comment anything.

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feeling more and more useless. fuck, jiale.
but now when i think back, its a nightmare man.
you wont know how i feel and how ive been through.

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sorry, bread's been soggy today. :(